這是一篇自我突破困境的故事。過去的我,每每面臨與未來生涯有關的情境時,總是無法自己做出決定,定要參考他人的意見,以滿足他人對我的期待為主。因此,希望能透過本次研究,找到影響自我生涯發展的因素,試著做自己的主人。 本研究藉由自我敘說生命歷程,將從小到大成長、學習與人際互動的過程一一重新檢視及再次敘說,發掘過去不曾留意到的小細節,找出影響自我生涯發展的因子,並試著突破現況,掌握自己未來生涯發展的方向。透過文獻的閱讀,以Crites所提出的生涯阻礙形成因素及Dysinger所區分的生涯未定向情境,分析與歸納出自己的生涯發展阻礙原因。 本研究發現,當我面臨生涯抉擇時期,除了個人心理因素影響之外,也受到個體與社會環境脈絡的互動影響,引領進入不同的生涯未定向情境。生涯發展過程中,人格特質的形成是生涯阻礙因素形成的很大影響因子,像是負面人格特質、自我概念模糊、被動、自信心缺乏等,皆與研究者的生涯發展有密切關係。 最後,透過自我敘說的過程,讓我終於有勇氣面對自己的一切,而不再只是逃避躲過遇到的問題與挑戰,且盲目跟隨社會主流論述。感受生命歷程所帶給我的好與壞,走出屬於自己的路。也期望自己的經驗能帶給從事生涯輔導相關工作的人員,能以回顧生命故事的方式,幫助生涯發展遇上困難的學生,找出屬於自己的方向。
This is a research describes me how to diagnose, prescribe and finally be able to break through the predicament. In the past, I was a kind of person who couldn’t make the decision by my own when I faced a topic related to my career. At that moment, I often referred to others’ opinion and followed their expectation or suggestion. Therefore, in this research, I will look for the factors that against my wish and improve it. I expect through this case to help myself be a more decisive person. This research scrutinizes and narrative my growth, education and sociality in order to discover the neglected trivia that may be my career barrier. I analyze my career barricade and organize them based on the factors of career barrier defined by Crites and Dysinger’s circumscribed career indecision. It showed that I experienced the cross-reaction between individual and social environment except for mentor cause when I confront the career-related issue. This effect lead me into different circumscribed career indecision. To build up career development, personality is the main reason to hinder career decision, such as negative personality traits, self-concept vague, passive, and lacking self-confidence. Those elements have intimate relationship with researcher’s career development. In conclusion, I could confront my weak rather than escape it through this self-examination. Furthermore, I can apply it into my life and start to learn how to love the bad and the good around me. I hope this retrospective examination could shed a new light for social worker to help students who face career dilemma that have the ability to find their own answer.