摘要
回憶是記憶的反芻，藉由慢慢沉澱後再重新吞吐，那些曾經發生過的事，不管是什麼樣的情緒，總想把它記錄下來，害怕流失似的，因為記憶總在時間分秒後漸漸消褪。 本論述主要以自我為中心出發，記錄著自己與男友、居家生活和美術教學在同一個屋簷下所發生的生活點滴。這樣的生活模式，產生了不同的互動關係，是微妙而複雜，難以言表的。對那曾經擁有而不可再得的過去，想試著再創作，去清楚地看見自我內心的深層感受，並且貼近當下真實的心理狀態。 創作過程中，作者將現實經由心象再現進行轉換，無非是想追尋自我生命經驗中的內心真實狀態，在內與外之間逐一體會，一直到完成作品，其間關係著客觀現實對應主觀心理感受之間的關係，不但牽涉到【客觀與主觀】融合在一起，也混淆了【外內與內在因素】的界線。這些由內而外，由外而內不斷反覆來回的反應，兩者關係是緊密但也互相抗衡。本文將探討客觀外在現實與主觀內在感受這二者連繫時所產生的現象，包括：一、感覺器官引起的生理錯視；二、兒童認知心理與現實間距離形成繪畫上的變化；三、超寫實主義完全描繪忠實呈現的寫實反而與觀者產生冷冽與不真實的距離感；四、MARLENE DUMAS對客觀圖像主觀性地篡改和扭曲，反轉揭開真相。 所以，如何才能貼近內心的『真』呢？作者選擇直接透過心象進行創作，放棄照片與影像作為參照物，讓『內心真實』，更加貼近自我的直覺與直觀，回歸原初的心理狀態。在使用的媒材方面，嘗試多種形態試驗，從單色水墨、水墨上彩、拼貼記憶、鉛筆…等，不同媒材物質性高低，反映精神性高低也不一，創作者嘗試發掘，探究其中變化。
並列摘要
Memory is the reaction of the recall. By slowly settled and re-think, those things that had happened, no matter what kind of emotion it is. I am afraid that it is going to vanish so I always want to keep it memorize because memories always fade out immediately. This discourse mainly start from self-centered development. Recording my boyfriend, home life and art teaching together under one roof. And this lifestyle leads to different kind of relationship. It is subtle, complex and hard to express by words. And for the irreversible past. It makes me want to create again and to actually search my feelings deep inside my heart. Furthermore, to record the real state of mind. In the process of creating, transferring reality through mind. The artist wants to search the true state of mind from his life experience. In the process of creation, experience from outside to inside until finish the works. The connection between, related from the objective reality to subjective feelings. It not only involves subject and object together but also confuses the line between inner and outer factors. Repeatedly react from outside to inside. The relationship of two is closed but also compete with each other. The following contents will discuss the phenomenon of the connection between the objective reality and the subjective feelings. Including, one, senses cause the physiological illusion. Two, children's cognition and reality difference change their drawing. Three, Surrealism is in fact closer to humanity than which is to realism . Four, MARLENE DUMAS subjectivity tampering and distortions to the objective image reveal the truth. Therefore, how to press close to the “truth” in heart? The artist chose to create directly through mind. Giving up using photos and images as references and let the inner truth getting closer to instinct. Return to the original state of mind. As for the use of materials. I experience variety forms, from monochrome ink, color ink, memory puzzles, pencil……, etc. Different levels of materials affect different level spirituality. The artist tries to explore the changes inside.