迷失自我救贖之路：籃球運動員自我覺醒歷程的個案研究

一位曾經參與高中籃球聯賽、大專籃球聯賽、超級籃球聯賽與國家隊的籃球員小詹（化名），在深陷「婚外情」的醜聞後，迷失自我期間不斷地找尋角色定位與價值。本研究目的在探究籃球員小詹背後的因素，瞭解與分析自我覺醒與轉化歷程。研究採取個案研究方法，透過深度訪談蒐集資料，並以相關文件作為訪談陳述的輔助，再現受訪者的經驗。研究結果發現在籃壇曾經占有一席之地的小詹，因為自己面臨角色衝突、恐懼與壓力的過程中，導致在籃球及生活，以及家庭的歷程中產生挫折。因此，也浪費與消耗了本身的才能與機會，以至於將心靈寄託在錯誤的選擇上。而當生命經過一段時間沉寂之後，重新開始的小詹靠著家庭的力量與堅定的自我覺醒，時刻提醒並堅持自身生涯歷程中最深刻的信念重新回到球場。本研究結論對曾經有過角色衝突、發生錯誤與挫折的運動員而言，雖然當下感覺永遠無法抹滅，甚至感覺是身上的一個「標籤」。但在個案身上看到，只要能深刻反省，放下過去的紛紛擾擾、帶著自我覺醒與轉化的決心，生命的意義將重新開始。

Keywords

深度訪談；自我轉化；自我認同；角色衝突；角色期望

Parallel abstracts

"Xiao Zhan" (pseudonym), a basketball player who once participated in the High School Basketball League, the University Basketball League, the Super Basketball League, and the national team, was caught up in an extramarital affair scandal. He then kept searching for his role and value during a period of being a "lost soul". The purpose of this study is to understand and analyze the process of self-awakening and self-transformation in Xiao Zhan. It adopts a case study approach, collecting data through in-depth interviews and relevant documents to reconstruct the lived experience and its interpretations. The results show that Xiao Zhan, who once held a significant position in the basketball world, faced conflicts, fears, and pressures. These challenges led to frustrations in his basketball career, personal life, and family relationships. Consequently, he wasted his talents, lost opportunities, and placed his trust in solutions that ultimately offered no help to him. However, after a period of silence in his life, Xiao Zhan started anew. He relied on family support and personal determination for self-awakening, constantly reminding himself of his core beliefs and adhering to them. Eventually, he returned to the basketball court. In conclusion, for athletes who have experienced role conflicts, mistakes, and frustrations, the negative dynamics may seem to cause a permanent blot at the time. However, as is observed in this case, a new meaning of life comes from deep reflection, letting go of past turmoil, embracing a determination to find self-awakening and self-transformation.