本研究以梅蘭妮·克萊恩觀點詮釋母親結以及母子/女關係中的僵局與修復經驗,試圖還原女性成為母親的經驗本質以及為人母的愛恨交織,漸進地理解當母親這回事。 以質性多個案研究方法,立意取樣邀請三位母親,曾經因母親角色或與子女關係掙扎者,藉由半結構式深度訪談收集母親的語言,透過為母歷程的回顧與思考,了解母親和子女的關係如何經歷特殊的情感,包含那外顯的衝突或隱藏的僵局,如何經歷個人內在與關係的修復。 本研究以梅蘭妮·克萊恩觀點作為理論視框,統整為母歷程的掙扎,理解母親這個任重道遠的角色如何深刻影響著女性的現實生活與內在生命,看見母親和孩子共同走過的足跡,參照克萊恩理論中母親結與修復的詮釋,尋找從嫉羨到感恩的路徑,期望促進彼此對自身及關係有更多思考。
This study is based on Melanie Klein’s point of view interprets the mother knot, and the impasse and reparation in the mother-child relationship. Trying to restore the essence and ambivalence of women becoming mothers, and gradually understand what being a mother really means. With the multiple case qualitative research methods, the three mothers were invited as samples and have been struggle due to the role of mother or the mother-child relationship. Through semi-structured in-depth interviews to review and reflection of the process to understand particular emotion in the explicit conflict or hidden impasse, how to experience the reparation of individual inner and relationship, so that mothers can have a chance to talk about themselves and have deeper understanding of each other. This study uses Melanie Kline's theory as a frame, tried to integrate the struggles of being a mother. Understand how the mother's role profoundly affects woman's real life and inside lives, and the footprints of mother and child. Referring to the interpretation of mother's knot and reparation, looking for a path from envy to gratitude, expecting to promote more thinking about themselves and relationships.