- 學位論文
放下：一位長期心理劇工作者的自我敘事
Let go：A narrative of a long-term psychodrama learner
摘要
這是一篇關於「放下」的故事，以生命中的關鍵事件為主體，透過自我敘說的研究方式，探究心理劇的演出經驗是如何影響現實生活中的人我關係。本研究的敘說歷程強調對話與反思，共可分成七個階段；透過「關注經驗」、「訴說經驗」、「轉錄經驗」等三個階段產出故事文本；為使自我敘說的故事內容趨於客觀，與故事中的他者進入「行動對話」的階段；帶著故事中他者的回應與觀點，進行「分析經驗」，除了建立一個更為後設的觀點進行反思外，並看見自己在生命故事中的心理歷程以及自身所處的社會文化脈絡；在「閱讀經驗」的階段進行一場學術討論，此時，個人的經驗敘說已擺脫個人敘說的層次，而是洞見一個新知、社會文化、個人視框轉換的機制；最終在「知識創造」階段，從個人經驗所產出的故事文本已精粹出關於心理劇的新知。 而在探究的過程中，使我體悟到，探究真理的目的不在爭論是非對錯，而是回觀自己的內在、理解他者的內在的想法、看見自身所處的文化背景。我從與故事中他者的回應文裡，看見一份父母親對孩子的愛，並在文化傳承中重現我父母親的位置；在故事的文本裡探見人我之間的關係是受到文化傳承的潛移默化，我透過心理劇中的角色交換，有機會站在他者位置回觀自己的人我關係，除了視野的改變外，也將心理劇的經驗轉移到現實生活中，並改善現實生活中的人我關係上；也探見《易經》中的家人卦正是華人對於家庭關係的哲學觀點。 透過自我敘說的研究歷程與反思，本研究在自我敘說的研究上提出：回歸傳統的書寫方式、敘說過程中要不斷地找人對話、自我敘說要讓故事中的他者發話等三點建議。
並列摘要
This research was a story about “Let go”. It focused on the main and important issues of one’s life to explore how psychodramas can affect the relationship between one and others in the real life by the self-narrative approach. The narration of the research emphasized on conversations and reflections, and there were seven stages, including: restructuring the stories by three stages, “attending to experience”, “telling about experience”, and “transcribing experience”; the others of the stories were introduced in the stage of “action conversation” to make the self told stories more subjective; according the viewpoints and responses of the others of the stories, the stage of “analyzing experience” began. This stage was to help the story tellers to reflect the psychological courses of their lives and the societies and cultures they are living in; at the stage of “reading experience”, the self narrative experiences were no more the self narrative, instead they showed the new respects about one’s self, society and culture; finally, the new knowledge of psychodramas were abstracted by the stories from one’s experiences at the stage of “knowledge-creation”. In the process of exploring, I realized the meaning of exploring is not finding the rights and wrongs, instead looking inward one’s self, understanding the inner thoughts of others and the background where we are living in is more important. From the others’ responds in the stories, I saw the love of parents for children. It helped me to re-orientate the love and importance of my own parents. From the story, it showed that the relationship between one and others was affected by cultures. And I had an opportunity to reflect the relationship between one and others of my own from other’s angle by the role exchange in psychodramas. My angles of viewing things were changed, and the experiences of psychodramas were transferred to my real life, it helped to improve the relationship of my own, and realize that the “kinship” in I-ching stands for the true value of the family in Chinese culture. From the process of self narration and reflection in this research, three viewpoints were concluded and suggested: returning to the traditional writing approach, keeping finding and talking to others in the narrative process, letting others speak for themselves. Key words：psychodrama, self-narrative, story of life.