潛藏的童年意識幻境— 羅婕繪畫創作論述

在現今高壓與快速的社會生活型態下，引發成人想回到過去單純生活與純真心境的渴望，努力保有初衷與赤子之心，而童年是每個人必經的路程，在無法捨去的經驗中，成為左右人類日後心理狀態最具有影響力的根源，筆者也因父親的離世，導致對美好童年留下依戀，在無法斷捨的情感連結中，藉由藝術創作抒發心境。人類的任何一項行為表現，都關係著個體的心理運作，其中創作者以繪畫方式傳達心理狀態，因此筆者藉由潛在的孩童心境體悟現今種種生活之感，以作品真誠的訴說內在情感，討論具有童年意識的圖像在作品中的意義，探在討兒時記憶對於日後生活的影響，以及藉由繪畫抒發情感的過程，試圖從心理學與魔幻寫實主義作為分析依據，試探童年經驗對於創作者的影響。　　本創作研究分五章進行，第一章緒論說明筆者以潛藏的童年意識作為創作研究的研究動機、目的、範圍及方法，第二章為創作的學理基礎與文獻探討，第三章舉例對筆者具有影響及啟發性的藝術家對童年題材的詮釋，第四章為作品說明與解析，將作品分為《獨語》、《造夢》與《暖陽》三個系列，也將在此章節對作品做進一步的解析，第五章為總結此研究的心得及筆者對未來創作的期許與展望。

關鍵字

童年意識；依戀情結；魔幻寫實；當代水墨

並列摘要

In today's high-pressure and fast-paced social lifestyle, it triggers the desire of adults to return to the simple life and innocence of the past, therefore striving to preserve their original intentions and the heart of a child. Childhood is the path that everyone goes through, and the experiences that cannot be forgotten subsequently become the most influential sources of people’s psychological states. The author also felt attachment to her great childhood because of death of her father. In the emotional bonding that cannot be given up, the author expresses her state of mind through artistic creation. All human behaviors are related to the individual's psychological mechanism, and the author expresses her mental state through painting. Therefore, the author realizes the sense of life in today through the mental state of a subconscious child and expresses her inner feelings in her works with sincerity, discussing the significance of images of her childhood awareness for her works, and exploring the impacts of her childhood memory on her life. Through the process of expressing her emotions through painting, she also tries to use psychology and magical realism as analysis basis to explore the influence that the childhood experiences have on the author. This study contains five chapters. The first chapter explains that the motive, purposes, scopes and methods of the author in using the hidden childhood consciousness as the research subject. The second chapter is the theoretical basis and literature discussion of the subject. The third chapter lists some of the most influential and inspirational artists for the author and exemplifies their interpretations of their childhoods inside their works. The fourth chapter describes and analyzes the works, which are divided into three series: “soliloquy”, “dream-making” and “warm sun”. The fifth chapter summarizes the research results and the author's self-expectations and prospects toward her future creation.