一個肉粽頭的生命轉化故事

這是一篇關於研究者藉由生命敘事法，將碎片般的記憶，透過整合而形成故事，將生命故事表層後面的含義，轉換成知識的歷程，並且使用這些知識進行行動研究，再次創造不一樣的生命經驗。本研究藉由生命故事的整合與分析，瞭解一個順從的乖小孩如何找到自己，在找到自己後，又如何打破藩籬重新建構自己，從以前那個被形塑、被強逼的肉粽頭轉化為能在角色中流動、在規則中穿梭，具備主體性的大人。研究者透過行動研究歷程，提供進行自我分化及其對實際生活的影響，分享給與研究者有類似生命經歷，想要提高自我分化、化解三角關係的行動者初步指引。

關鍵字

生命故事；行動研究；自我分化；轉化

並列摘要

This is a thesis about the process that the researcher uses narrative inquiry to integrate her fragmented memories into stories, transform the meaning concealed in the stories into knowledge, and use this knowledge to conduct action research to create a new life experience. Through the integration and analysis of her life story, this research explores how the lost and obedient child finds herself again and how she breaks down barriers to reconstruct herself. Thus, the child who was forced to become the life and soul of the family, like the Zongzi Hanging Knot, transforms herself into an independent adult who are free and flexible when facing various situations. Through the process of action research, the researcher narrates how self-differentiation has quite an impact on her life and hopes to shed some light for whom shares similar life experience, wishes to develop differentiation of self and deals with triangulation in relationships.