我•位置•存在感

此創作論述的撰寫乃筆者就讀研究所三年期間，以個人的創作、心境的轉變及自我探索的過程作為主軸的創作論述。創作論述環繞在自我、位置和存在感的找尋，藉由創作實踐的過程，確立個人的研究方向，也在探索自我的過程中，更認清自己存在的意義及其價值如何？它們對個人的創作以及生活影響為何？透過此篇創作論述分析自己的藝術創作理念，從創作的角度引述出自身觀點及視角。希望透過「審視自我」和「創作模式」，更加確立自我的創作方向和在現實中的存在感。以「我．位置．存在感」為創作命題，乃企圖藉現階段的我，自省繪畫創作中，各個位置的我；根據繪畫與生活之間，心理和創作之間的關係，找出個人藏在圖像創作內的根源或想法，進行對自我的檢視。第壹章緒論。包括：創作背景，創作目的，創作方法之學理基礎和創作形式等的闡述。第貳章「我．位置．存在感」命題的詮釋。源自於個人處在三個不同的世代之間──長者的那一代，自己這一代，以及年輕的下一代。身為中間人的寂寞與內在衝突，覺得不歸屬於自己的家庭、社會，甚至不屬於自己。這種情緒的困境，筆者以理性的、幾何的格子(grid)，建構創作形式，呈現在畫面的氛圍，是自身「位置」的不確定性。第叁章繪畫的結構。就圖像造形、空間意象、線條筆觸、色彩主張等創作要素，解析作品的形式，和創作的經營思維。第肆章針對2007-2010研究所三年內的核心創作作品，做逐一的圖錄說明。

關鍵字

位置；存在感；審視自我；繪畫與生活；心理和創作

並列摘要

This creation essay describes the main process axis of personal creation, soul transformation, and self searching during my three years of graduate study. The essay surrounds the search for self, positioning, and sense of being. Using creation implementation process, research direction is established following the mind flow. The meaning and the value of personal existence are further clarified through self-exploration. Their impacts on my creation and my life are examined. This essay analyzes my art creation concept. From creation point of view, personal opinion and view angle are discussed. The purpose is to set personal creation direction and locate existence in real life through "self examination" and "creation modeling". The creation topic surrounds self, positioning, and sense of being. Starting from being now, I examine the various positions of being me during the painting creation process. Based on the relationships between painting and life and between mind and creation, the hidden personal agenda and thinking behind the image creation are revealed through self-examination. Chapter 1：Introduction on creation background, objective, theoretical foundation of methodology, and style. Chapter 2：Interpretation of self, positioning, and sense of being. As a middleman in three generations involving parents, ourselves, and children, the loneliness and the internal conflict make one feel detached from family, society, and even oneself. To reflect this emotional dilemma, I use logical, geometrical, and grid creation style to describe the uncertainty about self positioning in the atmosphere of the paintings. Chapter 3：Painting structure. Analyze painting style and creation thinking through creation elements such as image modeling, space images, line strokes, and color ideas. Chapter 4：Detailed description on core creation works during the graduate study from 2007 to 2010.