- 學位論文
裸露的假面-自我之存在意象
Persona Uncovered - The Existential Image of The Face
摘要
我們最初認知的自我就是一個幻影，每個人自我認同初步形成的時期，揭示了：「自我就是他者」的弔詭意象。自我是想像的、期望的、異化的、扭曲的與被誤認了的對象。憑藉外於自身的他者（人/物體）才認識自己的存在，過程包含了期待與錯覺，當「我是完整的」幻覺成立的同時，也是「我是分裂的」這個事實被揭露的時刻。 主體對任何對象的認同都是一種期待的、想像的與理想化的關係，往後又發現之前的認同是一種誤認，認同與破滅就構成了主體不斷重複的發展。鏡像理論中，拉岡（Jacques-Marie-Emile Lacan, 1901-1981）所謂的鏡像並不只限於真實的鏡子，也包括週遭他人的眼光與其對自我的反映，主體在成長過程中的認同建立是經過各種不同的鏡像反射，包括與週遭他人的互動與意見來確立。 於是——自我的想像與現實的角力與辯證，就如此反覆出現在我的生活裡，藉由創作思考自我的各種面貌以及幻相的存在。在實際生活中，本能的進行偽裝、或在不同的場合戴上各式假面。 藉由複印的過程，翻刷隱匿在各式符號及裝扮之下的自我，也經由影像的虛擬再現，經由「他者」確認/確立真實的存在。在本論文中，嘗試談論每一個“是”背後存在的“否”，並且一次又一次透過人生這個舞台，展露在自我這齣劇中的各種映像。
並列摘要
Our initial awareness of self is a shadow. In the formation phase of self-awareness, it reveals a strange imago that “self is the other.” Self is imaginary, being expected, alienation, distortion, and misunderstood. Through the other (people/object), we realize our existence. The process includes expectation and illusion. When the illusion of “I am complete” is being formed, it is also the moment that the fact of “I am split” being revealed. The approval of the main subject to any objects is the relationship of expectation, imagination, and idealization. Later, it is found out that the previous approval is a misunderstanding. Approval and disappointment consist of the repeating development of the main subject. In mirror stage, the mirror called by Lacan was not limited to the mirrors in real life; it also includes the foresight of the others and self-reflection. The identification in the growing process of the subject is being reflected by different mirrors, including the interaction and the opinion of the others. Therefore, self-imagination and the wrestling and the proof of the reality repeatedly appear in my life, existing with all kinds of self-creation and imagination. In real life, it is out instinct to disguise, or put on a mask in different occasions. With the copying process, turn over the self hiding under all kinds of symbols and disguises. By reappearance of the images, confirm the existence of the trueness by “the others.” This thesis tries to discuss the “no” behind every “yes,” and reveal all kinds of images in the self through the stage of life.