在朦朧世界中出征：一個自我追尋的旅程

Striving in Dim World: The Journey of Self-searching through Personal Narrative

王臻雅(Wang Jenya)

指導教授 ： 謝玉玲

亞洲大學/人文社會學院/社會工作學系碩士班/碩士(2011年)

摘要

摘 要
　　打從一出生，我所觀看到的世界就是霧濛濛的，這是我認知到的「正常」的世界，原以為大家的世界都是如此，直到我上了小學，才發現自己與他人是不一樣的。從那一刻開始，原本就內向的我，漸漸開始感到自卑，我不知道自己怎麼了，也不明白自己做錯了什麼，為什麼常常有人要嘲笑我、欺負我。無法排解的情緒、無法解決的問題，使我心中的結，隨著時間的流逝而更加糾結不清，緊緊的捆綁著自己，讓自己變成一個在荒野中飄蕩的孤魂，找不到自己活著的意義。想死，卻又沒有自殺的勇氣；想活，卻又不知道該如何生存下去。
　　踏上自我敘說的旅程之後，在過去、現在與未來的反覆折返中，原本糾結的生命開始出現了鬆動，得以逐漸看見自己原來的樣貌。我開始學著去面對自己、接納自己、擁抱自己與愛自己，然後滋長出新的生命力量，使我能更自在的與自己共處，有勇氣去開創自己的未來。
　　這是一個關於我的故事，一個關於我的生命的故事，也是一個尋找自身、開創自身的故事。

關鍵字

自我敘說 ； 敘事研究

並列摘要

Abstract
Since I was born, the world I watched is dim. This cognition is what a normal world in my mind, and I think that everyone’s world is the same with mine.
Until I was on the elementary school, I just had discovered that I was different with others. Since the moment, I had begun to feel inferior gradually as I was introversion originally. I didn’t know what was wrong with me, what mistake I made and why some people ridicule and bullied me frequently? Some feelings weren’t able to be mediated and some questions weren’t able to be solved, which caused my heart more intertwine, and passed as well as bundled myself tightly and made me turn a solitary person fluttering in wilderness who could not find the significance of living.Wanting to die, I actually didn’t have the courage of suicide ; wanting to live, I ,however, didn’t have ideas of how I should survive continuously.
After I am on the self-narrative’s journey, repeatedly going there and back among the past, the present and the future, the original intertwined life started to become less crowded which would enable me to see my primary appearance gradually.
I also stared to learn how to face, admit, accept and love myself then to develop the new life-strength to assist me to feel more unrestricted and how coexist with myself, so that I could have the courage to create my own future.
This is the story about me, the story about my life, and also is the story about seeking and creating myself.

Key words：self-narrative, narrative research, life-story

並列關鍵字

self-narrative ； narrative research

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