穿越階級藤蔓－父女關係斷裂與再生歷程

Breaking and Rebuilding Bounds-Reflecting on My Father-Daughter Relationship

陳筱婷(Hsiao-Ting Chen) ； 洪瑞斌(Jui-Ping Hung) ； 莊騏嘉(Chi-Chia Chuang)

《應用心理研究》 60期 (2014/06) Pp. 273-313

摘要

本文透過自我敘說，反覆回看故事、反思，並行動，以社會脈絡觀點，看見個人試圖證明自己非失能者，透過升學考試提升自己，往「文明世界」靠近，並排斥回返「不文明世界」。即個人與母親緊密不可分背後，亦與對父親刻意疏離有關，疏離是想脫離「貧窮」，也想透過不斷唸書來提升「階級地位」，這反而使我與家庭產生關係斷裂。在父女關係斷裂之處，看見我對「失能恐懼」背後的社會建構，包括「失業等於失能－父女關係斷裂」、「晉升作為擺脫不利處境的策略」、「不斷向上爬－內化為強迫性焦慮與動力」。最後，研究者透過「父女相伴尋根」、「聽父親說他的生命故事」、「父親聽我說我的生命故事」、「召集生命故事見證人」、「父女關係位移」、「家庭關係挪移」等行動重新接起父女間斷裂的關係。

關鍵字

生命書寫 ； 自我敘說 ； 社會建構論

並列摘要

The present essay is a self-narrative; using past story-telling, reflections, actions, and social factors in an attempt to clarify that 〞I〞 am not without abilities, that I improved myself through the process of education and school admissions testing, and becoming closer to a 〞civilized world.〞Behind my unbreakable bounds with my mother were deliberate attempts of separation from my father. I attempted this separation to escape 〞poverty,〞 and aimed to elevate my 〞class〞 by means of education. This ultimately led to a falling out with family. Based on my broken father-daughter relationship, this essay attempts to trace and reflect on my social construct of 〞fear of inability.〞 Finally, the essay closes with a gradual reconciliation with my father through mutual story telling of memories.

並列關鍵字

life writing ； self narrative ； social constructivism

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