多重角色下的自我敘說──一位新婚在職進修國中女教師

Narrating my multiple roles: A newly married female, a graduate student and a middle school teacher

江佑芬(Yu-fen Chiang)

指導教授 ： 彭秉權

國立中央大學/文學院/學習與教學研究所/碩士(2015年)

摘要

這是一個關於「我」的故事。
民國百年，重要的轉捩點，一位教學生涯步入第四年的國中資源班教師，上了研究所，結了婚。生活裡突然多了許多不同的角色，我所意識到的，只有永無止盡的待辦事項及疲乏無力，為釐清這突如其來的混亂，我展開敘說探究的旅程。
走到第二章，我才發現「寫自己」不如預料中容易，起初，我轉向身旁週遭，希望能從文獻及他人口中看到自己的樣貌，所幸，在一次訪談回饋中找到「說」的力量，身邊同事和我正處於類似的困境，而「說」給人反思與改變的機會。
四至六章跳出學術框架，從各個角色的現實際遇開始「談自己」。依序是占據最多時間的工作，國中資源班教師的教學與行政工作；三年在職研究生的修課點滴以及心境上的轉換；以及新婚妻子在婚姻的憧憬與現實間，所面臨的衝擊及調適。透過敘說，讓我進一步思考什麼是更平凡而真實的期待。
最末兩章，進一步放開角色的框架，回頭咀嚼自己的生活，隨著敘說即將畫下句點，思索這些故事之於我，除了是通往畢業的最大試煉，對於未來還有什麼積極的意義？透過不斷的反思、探索，我看到自己這一路上的轉變與調整，這是我人生終將面臨的重要課題。我期許著，在這個「句點」之後是另一個嶄新里程的開始。

關鍵字

敘說探究 ； 國中資源班教師 ； 在職研究生 ； 妻子

並列摘要

This is a story of mine. 2011 is a turning point. Having been a resource room teacher in a middle school for four years, I began my graduate study and got married. Two critical new roles rushed into my life. I was only able to react by my instinct conscious of endless things and tiredness. I, therefore, started a journey of narrative inquiry to explore the mess.
As I arrived at the second chapter, I realized that “writing myself” was not as easy as I expected. In order to catch myself, at first, I turned to the literature and people around me. This attempt was not quite successful. But, fortunately, it helped me find out the power of “telling.” Both my colleagues and I were trapped in a similar predicatment. “Telling” can give us a chance to reexamine our conditions and transform ourselves.
From Chapter Four to Chapter Six, I left the rules of academic writing behind and turned my focus on the reality of the roles, and began to “talk about myself.” The chapters started with my job, teaching and administrating as a resource room teacher that occupies most of my time. Then, the chapters attend to my three-year learning career as an in-service graduate student. Third, the chapters recorded some of the conflicts in my marriage and my adjustment between the ideal and the reality as a wife. By “telling these roles,” I could consider further what an ordinary and pragmatic expectation should be.
In the last two chapters, I took one more step beyond the conceptual constraint of the roles, and reviewed the path I have experienced. I found that these stories are part of the most critical challenges of my life. I have recognized my changes along the way, and I hope that these stories could bring some more positive meaning in the future as the self-exploration is coming to its end and a new paragraph is to be written.

並列關鍵字

narrative inquiry ； resource room teacher in a middle school ； in-service graduate student ； wife

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