夢想、異象、身分：台灣首位女牧師的早期形塑

本文探討李幫助所編寫的《信心祈禱所發的功效》見證集，以敘事身分為核心主題，分析這些見證內容和台灣首位女牧師的形塑。同時參照教會正史，對照1923-1932年，淡水婦學堂和馬偕醫院的宣教師群體，以及上海中華女子神學院的校史，最後就是李幫助在台灣地方教會的服事歷史紀錄。在李幫助的見證和正史的對照中，敘事中女性經驗和正史的規範之間的裂縫，以女性歷史學者的批判觀點，對照出女性牧師在尋求建立自己的歷史，以及其身分的形塑之過程。正如利科所提出的敘事身分之觀點，在故事情節的堆砌中，敘事者如何描繪事情的經過，調節許多衝突的事物，達成自我身分之一致性。李幫助在二十世紀上半葉，從一位台灣傳統家庭出身的女性，轉換為具現代心靈的培靈講員，展現亮眼的女性意識。

關鍵字

李幫助；台灣首位女牧師；敘事身分；靈恩異象；祈禱

並列摘要

This paper explores the testimonies of Easter Lee whose narrative texts are edited as a pamphlet ＂The Effects Given by the Prayers of Faith.＂ The main theme of the analysis lies in narrative identity which helps to grasp how a female pastor was shaped. The ecclesial histories are referred as a contrast. They consist of the group of medical missionaries of Mackay Hospital, a women school between 1923-1932 in northern Taiwan, the histories of Chong-Hwa seminary in Shang-hai, and the materials of the local churches in southern Taiwan. While ecclesial records are referred to, the gap between the norm of the church and the female experiences in the narrative is expressed. The critical approaches of female historians, for instance Joan Scott's view, are adopted. The narrative indicates that a female pastor is in quest for her own history and shaping her selfhood. Corresponding to Ricoeur's view of narrative identity, the narrator establishes her narration with the unique employment through a re-figuration of the story in which disconcordance is mediated into concordance as a whole. In Easter's case, a female from traditional Taiwanese family in the early first half of the 20th century turns into a modern evangelist with a clear feminist awareness.