一位負傷助人者在學習過程中受苦經驗之自我敘說研究:從受苦到療癒

本研究旨在探討一位負傷助人者在學習過程中從受苦到療癒的歷程之自我敘說，了解負傷助人者如何背負著傷痛朝向療癒的路，本研究主要是探討助人工作者個人，在助人專業學習上內在的心理歷程的變化與生命歷程的移動，以及遭逢苦難事件後如何從受苦經驗朝向療癒的歷程。本研究採自我敘說研究法，透過研究者的助人學習經驗、與其他助人者以及生命歷程中重要他人之間的人際對話，以及個人自傳、日記、和社群網站文章與紀錄作為研究工具。研究者嘗試用說故事的方式，從受傷朝向療癒的歷程中，檢視生命事件的發生，以及如何對於過往事件賦予新的意義，並面對當下的生活。本研究企圖探討對於過去受苦經驗的檢視、重整與反思，以及探討負傷的助人者面對受苦經驗到療癒歷程，並加以整理研究者在助人工作學習過程中，對自己生命經驗的重新理解，並透過故事敘述與自身的心理位移方式，讓多重的自我進行對話，也企圖藉由文本與自我的對話，對於曾有相似受苦經驗的助人工作者和讀者提供分享與對話，並提供不同角度和面向去詮釋研究者在自我覺察過程的發現，以及反思助人工作者的角色與價值立場，除了能分享給類似或正處於受苦經驗的讀者，也能提醒同樣身為負傷助人者，經過這樣的歷程，能更能同理或看見諮商實務中當事人所承受的苦痛，以期包容與接納當事人的苦與痛，陪伴當事人走過療癒的路程且繼續向前。

關鍵字

自我敘說；負傷助人者；受苦經驗；療癒

並列摘要

The purpose of this study is to explore the self-narrative of the course from suffering to healing of a wounded helper in the course of learning, to understand how the wounded helper is carrying the pain towards healing, this study is mainly to explore the individual helper, the change of the inner psychological course in the professional learning of others and the movement of life course, and how to move from suffering experience to healing after suffering events. This study used self-narrative research methods through the researcher’s learning experiences, interpersonal conversations with other helpers, and important others in the course of their lives, as well as personal autobiographies, diaries, and community website articles and records. The researcher tried to tell a story about how life events occurred and how they gave new meaning to past events and faced the present life from suffering to healing. This study attempts to explore the examination, reorganization and reflection of the past suffering experience, as well as to explore the experience of suffering to healing process of wounded helpers, and to organize the researcher in the process of helping others to work and study, his own life experience re-understanding, and through the narrative and his own psychological displacement, so that multiple self-dialogue, but also through text and self dialogue, for the experience of similar suffering helpers and readers to provide sharing and dialogue.