重新看見自己-自我接納與認同之自我敘說研究

Seeing Myself from a Different Point of View－Self-Narrative Study of Self-Acceptance and Identification

張智堯(Jhih-Yao Jhang)

指導教授 ： 楊明磊

淡江大學/教育學院/教育心理與諮商研究所碩士班/碩士(2020年)

https://doi.org/10.6846/TKU.2020.00694

摘要

這是一篇關於尋找自我接納與認同的自我敘說論文，動機緣起是發現自身相當謹守人際關係中的時間，並於此深入於自身生命歷程去了解其中脈絡。從認為自身是因為過往人際挫折而感到自卑，並且在高中後是以順從、迎合及討好的方式與周遭人相處，到之後整理自身及雙親原生家庭的脈絡，看見雙親的辛勞及過往，意識到自己其實許多時候在關係中是體貼他人，並非皆為順從、迎合或討好。
論文呈現的方式為回憶及整理過往人際關係及親密關係之挫折經驗，因此認為自己是自卑且常順從、迎合及討好的一個人，到之後梳理家庭關係之脈絡，看見了自身的需求、情緒以及體恤，才理解自身很多時候在人際中是體貼他人。而透過內在質疑我及迎合我的自我對話，看見自己其實有想要成長及突破自己的慾望，並且透過說服自己是活在他人的期待之中而逃避掌握自己生命的責任。
透過自我敘說看見自我生命的多元視角後，決心拾起掌握自己生命的責任，期許自己多看見自己的好，不再將自己的行為一昧放置於順從、迎合及討好的位置上，勇敢嘗試新的體驗讓自己能夠繼續成長，實踐自我生命重要的價值觀。並在成為助人工作者的路上，因為自我敘說，讓自己實際走過了覺察、感受、轉化及實踐的歷程，幫助自己在助人時更能夠貼近個案。

關鍵字

自我敘說 ； 自我接納 ； 自我認同 ； 時間

並列摘要

This is the Self narrative thesis about seeking Self-Acceptance and Self-Identification. Motivation originates from discovering that myself is quite observant of the time in interpersonal relationships, hence I go deep into my life and try to understand the context of it. From considering myself as an inferiority person due to the frustrated interpersonal relationship in the past and always try to get along with people around me in a submissive and flattering way. I tried to sort out the context of myself and my parents’ original family. When I saw the hard work of my parents and realized that I am a considered person in my relationship, I know that not all my behavior is submissive or please to others.
The thesis is to recall and sort out the frustrating experience of previous interpersonal and intimate relationships, so I think that I am an inferiority and often submissive also cater to others. When I start to figure out my family relationship and see my own needs, emotions, and compassion, only then can I understand that I am often considerate of others in my interpersonal relationship.
Going through internal conversation, I see that I actually have the desire to grow up and break through the bottleneck, on the other hand I also realized that I escape the responsibility in order to handle my life by persuading myself to live in the expectations of others.
When I start to see my life in different aspects through self-narration, I am determined to pick up the responsibility to take charge of my life, hoping that I will see more of my goodness and I will no longer put myself in the position of obedience, catering and pleasing others. While walking the way to become a healer, I will have courage to try new things so that I can continue to grow and practice the important values of my own life. Self-narration allows me to go through the process of awareness, get in touch with my feelings, transformation, and practice, helping myself when helping others. In the end, I can get closer to the client as well as closer to myself.

並列關鍵字

Self-Narrative ； Self-Acceptance ； Self- Identification ； Time

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