來自色情國度的辛辣研究──1990年代出生之臺灣男同志G片觀看經驗與生活實踐

臺灣在色情研究的領域裡，是以異性戀經驗作為主體，缺少同性戀的聲音。據此，我以男同志身分出發，具體檢視男同志觀眾對G片的視覺脈絡，並分析男同志觀者援引G片的生命實踐。為理解男同志觀看與挪移G片背後的性別政治及實質內涵，我提出以下研究問題：第一、男同志觀賞G片的共通性、差異性、目的性是什麼？第二、男同志如何挪用G片內涵於性／性別／身體的日常踐履？透過分層抽樣與立意取樣原則，我深度訪談六位1990年代出生的臺灣男同志。本文的主要研究發現如下：一、六位男同志皆是在未成年時期接觸G片；他們都是免費看網路G片；他們較喜歡一個人看G片；他們通常是快轉、間斷、跳躍地看自己喜歡的G片內容；他們各自有自己喜歡的G片類型，但他們偏好的G片類型也具體反映出他們的性實踐；他們平常看G片的動機主要是想打發無聊的時間或自慰洩慾。二、六位男同志在性姿勢／性知識、強暴、保險套等子題中，受特定的社會化規訓、懲罰、監視、引導與控制，因而在挪用G片內涵的歷程裡，經歷更複雜的掙扎與協商；但在身體子題中，卻鞏固身體作為陽剛氣質的視覺結構，一方面貶抑不符合標準身體形象的男同志，另一方面看不見符合標準身體形象的男同志在男同志文化裡享有的特權與紅利，間接增強霸權陽剛的身體運作；不過，除非男同志不認同自己的身體，否則他們通常會選擇觀看與自己身體類型相近的G片男優，藉以投身G片世界。本文在個人與結構，微觀與宏觀之間看見男同志從G片學習怎麼變得不一樣的相同方式。

關鍵字

G片；男同志；色情；性；身體意象；陽剛氣質

並列摘要

In the field of pornography research, Taiwan is based on heterosexual experiences and lacks the voice of homosexuality. Based on this, I set out as a gay man to specifically examine the visual context of gay videos of gay viewers and analyze the life practices of gay viewers referring to gay videos. In order to understand the gender politics and substantive connotation behind the gay men's viewing experiences and references of gay videos, I interviewed in depth six gay men born in Taiwan in the 1990s with below questions according to the principle of stratified sampling and purposive sampling: First, what is the commonality, difference, and purpose of gay men watching gay videos? Secondly, how do gay men imitate gay videos in their sex/gender/body practices? The main findings of this paper are as follows: First, all six gay men were exposed to gay videos during their teenage years; they all watch gay videos free on the Internet; they prefer to watch gay videos alone; they usually watch their favorite gay videos quickly, intermittently, and partially; they each have their own preferred types of gay video and the types also reflect to their sexual practices; their motivations for watching gay videos is mainly to spend the time or masturbation. Secondly, in the discussion of sexual posture/sexual knowledge, rape, condom usage, all six gay men were restricted to socialized discipline, punishment, surveillance, guidance, and control, and as a result, they have experienced more complicated struggles and negotiations in the process of imitation of gay videos. However, in regards of body, they consider the body figure as a visual presence of masculinity. On one hand, gay men who do not meet the body type standard are derogated; on the other hand, they cannot realize the privilege and benefit of having a standard body type meeting the mainstream preference of gay culture which enhance indirectly the body image of hegemonic masculinity. However, unless gay men do not identify their own body types, they usually choose to watch porn actors who have similar body types in order to participate in the world of pornography. This essay sees that gay men use the same approach to learn to become different from gay video viewing experiences in both individual and organizational points of view and in both micro and macro perspectives.