從一人社工出發~朝向返家之路

Beginning as a one-person social worker ~~ Moving toward my way home

鍾秀貞(Hsiu-Chen Chung)

指導教授 ： 程玲玲

國立臺北大學/社會科學學院/社會工作學系/碩士(2010年)

摘要

這是一本社工學習者的自我敘說論文，透過研究者本身的一人社工經驗開始回溯。研究者在該段工作經驗裡，錯置自己的專業認同於證照取得和他人認同上，忘卻社會工作服務價值，研究者對於社工理想、價值信念與自我認同越趨混淆與模糊，看不見自己的存在。帶著這樣的創傷，研究者逃離到研究所並投入另一份工作經驗，然而空虛與矛盾卻未獲得救贖，在發現自己的掙扎與混亂後，我決定為自己發聲，藉由耙梳二段實務工作經驗，探索矛盾痛苦經驗背後的渴望。
原一直以為社會工作經驗與生命經驗可以切割的我，隨著文本的耙梳，看到媽媽的影子不斷交會在我與個案的生命及互動經驗裡，亦發現專業其實跟隨著生命經驗而走，彼此交織、連結及滋長。透過書寫，我也找到了新的眼光去理解媽媽的故事，更得到了最珍貴的禮物─媽媽的愛。於是原本切割的、斷裂的生命，開始完整了起來。
這本論文，由原來企圖抒發我在一人社工的創傷經驗，隨著敘事的開展，我漸漸拾回了主體，尋得了回家之路，也尋得我在社工的安身立命之道。

關鍵字

一人社工 ； 社工認同 ； 安身立命 ； 自我敘說

並列摘要

This is a self-narrative story of a social work learner. It recalls the one-person social worker experience of the researcher. In that work experience, the researcher misplaced her professional identity in obtaining the license and other people’s recognition, and forgot the value of the social work service. The researcher became more and more confused and ambiguous regarding the ideals, values, beliefs and self-identity of a social worker, and couldn’t find out her own existence. With this trauma, the researcher escaped to the graduate school, and devoted herself to another work experience; however, emptiness and contradiction have yet to receive salvation. After discovering her struggles and confusion, the researcher has decided to speak for herself, and to explore the desire behind the contradicting and painful experience by working through her the other two work experiences.
The researcher/I, who always thought that my working experience as a social worker could be separated from my own life experience, along with the summarization of the texts, seeing the shadow of my mother constantly appear in the interaction between my client and me,. I have also found that my profession essentially moves along with my own experience, they interweave, connect and grow with each other. By writing the texts I have a new perspective on understanding my mother’s story, and have received the most precious gift, my mother’s love. Therefore, my initially separated and broken life becomes completed.
Originally, this paper was to express my traumatic experience as a one-person social worker. Along with the narration, I gradually regain my own subjectivism; find my way home, and also my own place in social work.

並列關鍵字

one-person social worker ； the identification with social work ； my own place in social work ； self-narration

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