擬態－林佩儀創作論述

「擬態」在本文意旨在社會制約及生活環境中，人為了生存隱匿最原本的自身心理，迎合社會眼光，只為了融入群體生活，像是披上一層保護色，隔膜著內在最真實的想法，而在這樣潛移默化的過程中，漸漸失去了最真的自我，喪失了本性。　　本論述主要敘述作者研究所時期內創作的各個階段，藉由繪畫這樣自我表達的工具，依據生活環境中出現的各種因子，探索背後的意義及與自身關聯性，並延伸出對於生命記憶的體悟，藉由此方式找出具有個人意涵的圖像，做為媒介，在畫面中建構比起現實世界更為真實的心靈世界，探悉自我性靈。在創作中意識穿梭在過去及現在，隱匿與偽裝的一切將無所遁形，將完整的想法投射在作品中，強調真實的自我，尋找、隱匿、移情/投射，透過這樣的創作思考模式，屏除外在的因子，企圖在創作中找回失去的本性，最終將導向的是一種歸「真」，而在這創作的過程本身也是一項對於自我理解與心靈治癒的一部分。

關鍵字

記憶；隱匿；面具；投射

並列摘要

“Ｍimicry ” is intended to survive in the social constraints and living environment. In order to integrate into group life, people put on a layer of protective color and disobey the innermost real thoughts, in this process of subtle change, they gradually lose their true self and lose their nature. The author of this research created a various of works in the period of studying by painting to express oneself, which based on various factors that appear in the living environment, to explore the meaning behind and with their own relevance and extended understanding of the memory of life. By this way, we can find out images with personal meaning and use them as mediums to construct a more realistic spiritual world in the picture and to explore self-spirituality. The idea of the creation shows people’s experience in the past and now. It’s impossible to hide and camouflage. The complete idea shows in the works, emphasizing the true self, looking for something, concealment, empathic / reflection. Through this mode of creative thinking, the elimination of external factors in an attempt to recover the lost nature of the creation ultimately lead to a kind of “truth”, and the process of creation is itself a part of self-understanding and spiritual healing.