走在夢與真實之間-以夢記錄探詢人生意義之自我敘說研究

本研究是以自我敘說方式，透過整理研究者幾十年來與靈性夢境有關的夢紀錄為主，輔以其他靈性經驗相關的日記文本，重新回顧當時的內心狀態及持續性的變化，並分析這些靈性夢境和靈性經驗對研究者的價值觀和人生抉擇所產生的影響，進而在研究的歷程中，統整自我及持續探詢人生意義。大量的文本及敘事，記錄了作者自年幼所經歷的各種靈性夢境(含預知夢及清醒夢) 與靈性經驗等獨特人生經歷，並忠實展現出研究者多年來受這些經歷影響，而出現在靈性與現實之間的矛盾及掙扎。隨著研究過程中的梳理以及與友人探討及自我提問，研究者發現不同的事件中隱藏著類似的行為模式，並且緊扣著孤獨與自我認同的人生課題，最終，研究者逐漸接受自己與生俱來的特質，也能用臣服的心態去接納命運的安排，但卻也同時用更積極的信念，將靈性夢境和靈性經驗，當作對現實的參考和提醒。

關鍵字

自我敘說；生命敘事；夢紀錄；靈性經驗；靈性夢境；預知夢

並列摘要

This study is based on self-narrative methods, mainly by sorting out the dream records related to spiritual dreams by researchers for decades, supplemented by diary texts related to other spiritual experiences. Through reviewing the inner state and changing of the researcher at that time, and then analyze the impact of the values and life choices of the researcher by these spiritual dreams and spiritual experiences, further more to self-integrated and searching the meaning of life during the process of this research. A large number of texts and narratives record the author's unique life experiences such as various spiritual dreams (including precognitive dreams and lucid dreams) and spiritual experiences since childhood, which faithfully disclose the researcher has been influenced by these experiences over the years and cause the current conflict and struggle between spirituality and reality. With the sorting out in the research process, discussions with friends and self-questioning, the researcher found that different events has similar behavior patterns, and are closely related to the life topics of loneliness and self-identity. Eventually, the researcher gradually accepted themselves and her life with the inherent characteristics, she can also accept the arrangement of fate with a surrendered attitude, but at the same time, she also can use more positive belief and consider spiritual dreams and spiritual experiences as references and reminders to the reality.