在消褪中的延續

回憶和生命隨著時間漸漸地消褪，卻不曾真正消失過，它們改變了存在的形貌，緩慢地在消褪中找到延續的方式。本篇論文依序討論筆者2011至2013年就讀研究所期間的作品，從生命脈絡找出自己如何展開「自然」這個創作主題與創作媒材，觀察自己創作過程中心態的改變，試圖從中找出個人的創作脈絡與本質。深鑿自身心靈層面，一層層撥開其內涵，探察個人內在，最後延伸論述《褪色的回憶》、《Leaves》兩件作品。《褪色的回憶》以「手作紙」和「藝術家的書」為創作媒材，作成偶書的形式，將慢慢喪失記憶的阿嬷，利用手作紙、書籍裝幀與繪畫的方式，重塑我與阿嬷之間曾經共有的回憶與情感，讓阿嬷的內在精神藉由偶書而傳達，同時在創作過程中，追尋人類與書籍長久以來的情感歷史與回憶；《Leaves》為系列燈箱立體裝置，以樹木為主角，透過內心獨白，將內在情感藉由葉子宣洩出來樹木被砍伐，最終卻成為書籍、椅子以及桌子，跟阿嬷的記憶一樣，用另一個形式將自己的生命延續下去。

關鍵字

樹木；消褪；延續；記憶；自然；藝術家的書

並列摘要

As time passes by, our memory and life fade away. They never disappear, only changed their forms of being. And we see their continuity in fading. This thesis discusses my art work from 2011 to 2013 during my graduate study. Within the context of my life, I ask ‘How do I begin my subject of nature and use the nature material?’ I observed my art making process in which I was wondering how my mind changes and try to find the essence of my work. I go deeply into my body and soul searching for my inner self through art making and reflection. “Faded Memory” is a figure that is made of my handmade paper and watercolor painting. It is also an artist’s book”. I used handmade paper, bookbinding techniques, and watercolor to rebuild the memory and feelings between my grandma and me. In other words, it transmits my grandma’s intrinsic spirit. At the same time, I search for the long-term emotion and memory history within people and books. “Leaves” is a series of light box installation. I created a tree as a main character that it has inner monologues. The leaves, as a path, unleashed the tree’s deepest feeling, though the tree was cut down at the end. Yet, it becomes a book, a chair or a table. In a way, it changes its form of life and continues its journey.