愛、流離與家－阮慶岳〈無良人居所〉、〈上兵廖崇基〉、《重見白橋》中的同志敘事

Eros, Diaspora and Home: The Homosexual Narration in Ruan Qingyue's Three Novels: ＂A Home without Lover,＂ ＂Private Liao Chong-Ji,＂ and Revisiting the White Bridge

莊家瑋(Chuang Chia-wei)

《中國文學研究》 36期 (2013/07) Pp. 155-191

https://doi.org/10.29419/SICL.201307_(36).0005

摘要

阮慶岳的小說創作中，「同志」敘事向來是作家致力探索且貫串寫作歷程的重要部分，在其整體寫作成就中有顯著代表性與特殊性。本文以「愛」、「流離」與「家」為論述關目，聚焦考察阮慶岳三篇／部小說中的「同志」敘事。〈無良人居所〉、〈上兵廖崇基〉與《重見白橋》分別透過同性愛侶間的「築家」夢想、面對傳統婚姻制約的「成家」困思，以及離散酷兒的「歸家」歷程，深刻地揭示出同志的愛欲掙扎與追尋之路。無論是空間性質的「家屋／居所」、倫理性質的「家庭」，或具有身世源初義的「家族」、「家園」，在「家」的課題中，可以看出阮慶岳對「同志」歷路的深度觀照；從「家」之探索所辯證的「愛」之複義與「流離」境遇，更體現其同志敘事的現代感知。從「家」到「家族」，阮慶岳透過「無以為愛」、「流離失所」的生命敘事，引領我們思索作為「現代人」的「同志／孤獨個體」，如何在「愛」的連結渴望中，展開「重建／見」與「歸家」的追尋歷程。從「如何去愛」、「何以歸家」的追問、反思啟程，也更能看出同志與世界交往過程中，種種自我與命運之欠缺與艱難，正是在這裡，「愛」的奧秘再度被召喚，「家」的歸向閃現美麗的曙光。

關鍵字

阮慶岳 ； 愛 ； 流離 ； 家 ； 同志敘事

並列摘要

In Ruan Qingyue's novels, homosexual narration has always been a significant and deeply explored part of his writing. It is also believed to be representative of his overall writing achievement. This essay, focusing on Ruan's three novels, aims to explore the themes of eros, diaspora and Home. Specifically, this essay demonstrates a homosexual's struggle with and search for love through the dreams of building a home with a same-sex lover in ＂A Home without a Lover,＂ the issues in facing challenges of the traditional norms of ＂getting married and settling down＂ in ＂Private Liao Chong-Ji,＂ and the course of ＂homecoming＂ of a displaced queer in Revisiting the White Bridge. Whether it is ＂house＂ or ＂residence＂ in terms of space, ＂family＂ in terms of ethics, or ＂clan＂ or ＂hometown＂ in terms of kinship, Ruan has provided in-depth exploration of the concept of home through the life history of homosexual characters, which in turn reveals the complex meanings of eros and the complicated feelings of diaspora. This further presents the contemporariness of homosexual narration. From ＂home＂ to ＂clan,＂ and through the life story of ＂lovelessness＂ and ＂diaspora,＂ Ruan urges us to ponder on how a homosexual in the modern world, who is eager for love, begins the journey of ＂returning home.＂ From repeated investigations of and reflections on ＂how to love＂ and ＂how to return home,＂ the shortcomings and challenges of self and fate of the homosexuals in the world are portrayed; however, it is also because of these investigations and reflections that the mystery of eros has been revealed and the direction to home has appeared.

並列關鍵字

Ruan Qingyue ； eros ； diaspora ； home ； homosexual narration

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