家內性侵害倖存者寬恕歷程之研究

本研究旨在探討家內性侵害倖存者之寬恕歷程、寬恕概念及寬恕影響，研究目的為：（一）探究家內性侵害倖存者對性侵事件相關當事人的寬恕歷程；（二）了解家內性侵害倖存者對寬恕的認知；（三）發掘家內性侵害倖存者的寬恕經驗對其生活的影響及意義；（四）提供助人工作者在與家內性侵害倖存者工作之建議與方向。本研究採用敘說研究之「整體─內容」分析法，以立意取樣取得三位研究參與者，透過半結構式深度訪談，呈現三位研究參與者之寬恕歷程、寬恕認知及寬恕影響如下：一、受訪者寬恕歷程四階段：受害期、壓抑期、混亂期、放下期。二、受訪者有五項寬恕認知內涵：「原諒」與「不原諒」衝突、矛盾和反覆的過程；不只原諒加害人，也原諒自己；不只原諒加害人，也原諒直接卅間接的重要他人；寬恕是持續的過程，先有來自上帝的寬恕，後才能寬恕自己。三、受訪者有三項寬恕影響：重拾家庭卅家族關係、理解性創傷的影響、出現正向詮釋的能力。研究的其他發現：一、承認事實、承認情緒，對家內性侵害倖存者來說是不容易的事：受訪者長期壓抑家內性侵害事件之事實及情緒，唯等到可信任之支持資源出現時，才產生意願及勇氣承認家內性侵害事件的存在，承認對家內性侵害事件之情緒。二、關鍵事件推波助瀾家內性侵害倖存者寬恕歷程之進行：受訪者因為關鍵事件的發生，開始處理性侵害事件影響的個人議題、對相關人的認知及情緒、寬恕的反覆考量。

關鍵字

家內性侵害倖存者；寬恕歷程；敘說研究

並列摘要

The main content of this research is to study the forgiveness processes, concepts and influence of incest survivors. There are four goals: 1. To study the forgiveness processes of the incest survivors to the perpetrators. 2. To understand the acknowledgement of the incest survivors about forgiveness. 3. To understand the influence and meaning of forgiveness experience from a survivor’s perspective. 4. To provide future suggestions and directions for professional helpers. A narrative research holistic-content perspective was adopted to conduct a half-structured in-depth interview by purposive sampling of 3 participants. Their forgiveness processes, acknowledgement, and influence were listed below: 1. There were four stages of their forgiveness: victim stage, oppressive stage, chaotic stage, letting go stage. 2. There were 5 cognitive concepts about forgiveness: (1). It was a conflictual, paradoxical and repetitive process of forgiving and not forgiving. (2). Not only forgive the perpetrator but also forgive one's self . (3). Not only forgive the perpetrator but also forgive the direct/non-direct significant others. (4). Forgiveness is a continuous process. (5). We have God's forgiveness before we can forgive ourselves. 3. There were three different influences: rebuild family relationship, understand the reaction of the post-trauma of the sexual abuse, come up with positive interpretation. My research also found that 1. It was very difficult for survivors to admit the facts and emotions about them. Not until they could have supportive resources did they have courage to accept the facts and emotions. 2. Happening of the key event helped facilitate the forgiveness processes. The participants started to deal with personal issues, cognition and emotions towards related others when key event happened.