立「誌」做自己：認同生成的N堂課

Zine Yourself: A Semester of Identity-building and Self-becoming

楊佳穎(Chia-Ying Yang)

指導教授 ： 吳岱融

國立臺北藝術大學/文化資源學院學術論文/藝術與人文教育研究所/碩士(2016年)

摘要

離開「嘉/家」鄉到臺北念書，與不同的環境、人事物相遇；經驗家鄉的快速變化，「我是誰？」成為迫切想知道的答案。研究者尋尋覓覓，希望在千絲萬縷的混雜記憶中，看見「自我」、確認「自己」，卻不得不面對，任何環境都造就了這個「我」，而研究者亦是「我」的重要動力，於是開始思考何謂「認同」？「如何認同」？變遷存在的世界、抵抗權威的社會、「認同」混亂的焦慮，是否有解？而研究所的學習，使研究者嚐到創作與知識生產的味道；從藝術實踐的過程，體驗「創作」與「生產」自己的可能，「認同」或「我是誰」的命題，為什麼僅是對過去的追尋？尋找某種源頭、別人的目光或社會價值呢？隨著從女性主義與文化研究的文本，接觸「生成/地下莖」理論，研究者透過身體實踐、與知識對話，試著從「生成」的角度，理解「認同」和「身份」是在關係或處境中被實踐；女性主義所提出的「處境知識」與「立足點理論」，更幫助研究者了解如何面對因「認同」所產生的混亂、並進一步實踐「生成」的行動。
　　透過文獻探討，研究者先後爬梳後殖民與女性主義對於「認同」、「生成」的觀點；以及藝術家如何藉「藝術實踐」思考「認同」，初步提出「創藝(art-making)/創易(self-making)/創義(meaning-making)」三者摺疊的假說；再以「立足點理論」、「藝術實踐研究」為研究方法的背景理論與策略，探究「認同如何透過藝術實踐生成？」之問題意識；並以「誌(zine)」為藝術實踐形式，分別發展四本「立誌」作品，於104學年度下學期，在梅山國小與高年級參與者透過藝術實踐，探索「做自己」的意義、發展「做自己」的策略，以及生成自我。
　　研究者從參與者所創作之「立誌」，以及參與者所完成延伸於「立誌」之相關文本，發現參與者確實在藝術實踐時，因以己之力思考、並實踐創作，而感到「做自己」、經驗「差異」的自己、並且在與他者相遇時更認識自己，以及發展出自我面對處境之行動策略，證實個體進行藝術實踐時，亦同時生產意義、生成自我。此研究發現回應了研究者所提出「創藝/創義/創易」三者摺疊之假說，顯示藝術實踐可作為顛覆同一認同、且積極生成認同之行動，創造差異相遇之居間，使個體生產自我知識、實踐認同生成。

關鍵字

認同 ； 生成 ； 身體 ； 藝術教學實踐

並列摘要

After leaving my hometown Chia-yi, I came to Taipei to have my college life. As I met with different things and different people in hugely different situations and experienced about the speedy change of my hometown, which made me keep asking “who I am,” I tried so hard, hoping I can find out and make sure the self of me in those tumultuous memories and situations. However, I have to face the music that everything I had encountered just brought me up like this. And I am the one who owns the agency for my transformation. For those reasons, I began to think about what “Self-identity” is? How do we identify a self? And what can we do to face this chaotic world, and solve our anxiety when we feel confused about the identity?
I have tasted the flavor about art-making and meaning-making after studying in Graduate Institute of Arts and Humanities Education. Each time when I practiced, the process of art practice became the possibility of creating and making self. I asked why we could only search out identity from past. Why are we still looking for ourselves from some kinds of origination or from someone’s mind and society-worth? Through some Feminism and Cultural studied text, I tried to communicate with those theories by practicing. I tried to use the viewpoint of “becoming” to comprehend that “Identity” is actually practiced in different relationship and situations. Moreover, ”Situated knowledge” and “Viewpoint theory” mentioned by some feminists can probably be the way to confront the chaos and help me practice “becoming”.
In the study, I used the point of view from post-colonialism and feminism to figure out what Identity and Becoming are. And I researched some different artists who mentioned about Self-identity through their art practice and tried to recommend the hypothesis of folding art-making/meaning-making/self-making. It became the strategy of the investigation about my problematic “How can we build our identity and practice self-becoming through art-making?” I have planned to design an art education project with “zine” as the form of art practice in MeiShan Elementary School for the participants. I used “Art practice as research” as main research method to explore whether we can use art-making to practice meaning-making and self-making or not and use “Viewpoint theory” as the background knowledge for practicing the study. I hope the entire participations can explore the meaning of “becoming self,” find out the strategy of “becoming self,” and practice it through the process of making zines.
From participants’ zines and from other texts which are related to zines, I have discovered that those participants really felt about being themselves, experienced a different self, and identified themselves when they practiced their artworks with their own strength and thought. At the same time, they developed their own strategy to face the different situations. This finding verified that people really can use art-making to practice meaning-making and self-making and revealed that through the in-between space which was created for differences to encounter by the art practice, people can build their own situated knowledge and practice “self-becoming”. For this reason, as my conclusion, art practice became the action for subverting “One” identity and became the action for practicing “self-becoming”.

並列關鍵字

identity ； becoming ； body ； art practice

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